Had a really rough day yesterday. Had to have one of my cats put to sleep. Angel was 13 years old and like the rest of my pets- 2 dogs and 1 other cat- was like a child to me. I had to wait for 2 days before I could get him to the vet and I knew how it was going to end. I was worried about him right up till they gave him his shot, ended his suffering. I still am hurting. I feel guiltly for killing him like that. I know it was the right thing to do, but that doesn't change the way I feel.
I lost it at work today with another co-worker and a dept head. I feel so stupid and ashamed to be crying like this over a cat. But I don't have children and the feelings I have for a child are shown toward my pets. No one else seems to understand the hurt and guilt that I feel. I've read about the "Rainbow Bridge" and I truly hope that there is a place for pets to be make whole and happy again. I have also read another version of the "Rainbow Bridge", called "Swimming Under the Rainbow Bridge" on another forum. It is a great comfort for those of us that have also lost fish that we loved and cherished.
Am I the only one to lose it this much over a cat or any other pet that has passed on? I know it will get better, I'll just love the ones that are left all the more. Their passing is the hardest part of having and caring for a pet. Only a true pet parent could understand. I just had to find some way to express my feelings, maybe I can get over it and concentrate on other things. This isn't the first animal I've had to put down, but for some reason, it's hitting me a lot harder than usual this time.
I lost it at work today with another co-worker and a dept head. I feel so stupid and ashamed to be crying like this over a cat. But I don't have children and the feelings I have for a child are shown toward my pets. No one else seems to understand the hurt and guilt that I feel. I've read about the "Rainbow Bridge" and I truly hope that there is a place for pets to be make whole and happy again. I have also read another version of the "Rainbow Bridge", called "Swimming Under the Rainbow Bridge" on another forum. It is a great comfort for those of us that have also lost fish that we loved and cherished.
Am I the only one to lose it this much over a cat or any other pet that has passed on? I know it will get better, I'll just love the ones that are left all the more. Their passing is the hardest part of having and caring for a pet. Only a true pet parent could understand. I just had to find some way to express my feelings, maybe I can get over it and concentrate on other things. This isn't the first animal I've had to put down, but for some reason, it's hitting me a lot harder than usual this time.
and there is no need to feel ashamed, i have lost many pets during the years and i have always felt sad and cried for them, and i hope things will get better soon.