that sucks man, live a good life and enjoy every day, ive lost a few too, couple to suicide, one rear ended a snow plow, on hit by a snowmobile, one murdered cause he slept with some crazy mexicans girlfriend, one on motorcycle head on collision, both my grandparents have died in the last year. but if you met me im the happyest dumbass you ever seen. you suck it up and take life by the balls. yea i have some rough times if i sit around and think about stuff too much, just stay busy and pay tribute to them by not wastin your life like so many people do, dont feel sorry for yourself and dont let people feel sorry for you. if it is too much to handle dont be too proud to get cousiling, its free through most churches and mental health centers. i had to for a while, survivors remorse is natural, and if your considering revenge forget it, youll just end up in jail, guaranteed. you can pm me if you want, i been through it all bro