Oh but I think I am though, I am totally picky. And I don't mean to be, I mean I have dated all kinds of guys - of all kinds of races, social status', economical brackets, you name it! But I really don't know why I get so bored. I mean it always starts out wonderfull, you know, the butterflies, not being able to focus because all you think about is them, having even the simplest everyday things seem so much better just because they are with you............... But like 2 weeks later, I let my voicemail answer the phone, make excuses why I can't go out, start trying to wean them away from me, and so on. I really hate it because I feel so wicked for doing it, and usually they are pretty decent guys, I just don't know why I get sick of them. Most of the time, I don't even know why they are with me in the first place, I mean I have got to be one of the biggest dorks I know. My sense of humor is 20% Dry, 30% special 'ed, and 50% smart ass. Most people take what I say wayy to seriously - especially girls, which makes it a battlefield for me on the dating scene cuz I feel like I am going to get da' smack down from other chicks when I walk in a room. I HATE that, I have like 3 girlfriends I am close to - YES ASH, one is you, LOL, but everyother girl always hates me, and I don't know why!!!! I have mostly guy friends, I guess I just relate to them better, and like to just chill. Sure, I am a girl and if there is something I want - - I will go shopping, or get my nails done, or my hair or just whatever. But there is a whole other side to me - my fishgeek side, my video game side, and my car side. Now the last three, no, it's not hard to find guys into those, but the problem is, once they realise "Holy crap, she really does know what she is doing", they go all gaa-gaa and fall in love with me. Excuse me but since when did it become a miracle for a girl to know how to install a drive train or change brakes??? Hellloooo! And video games - Just because I like them, nooo I don't want to sit in the house everynight and have wi-fi military covert op's with all your friends via a headset. I mean, I never find a rounded guy. One is obsessed with cars, so all we do is car stuff - cool, but I am diverse. One is obsessed with football, so he thinks it's cute to drag me to MNF wearing his high school jersey non-stop, smashing beer cans on each other's heads (I do the smashing, I do not get smashed upon! LOL). But seriously, since I am into so many different things, it's not hard to find someone, just hard to find someone who is more universal, and up for new thins, and well rounded with a good head on their shoulders you know. My animals are my passion, and work will usually always come first because it involves my animals. But I like to get freaky and let lose just as hard as the rest of them, and I just can't seem to find the balance of "Good, solid, college grad meets rocky horror picture show". LOL I want someone I can have a blast with, share intrests with, but still be able to take home to the family and chill with everyone........ and when we are alone, well, things you've never seen in any trashy romance novel. LOL. I know I am picky, but if I weren't then would I ever really be happy, I mean wouldnt I just be settling?? Or is it that maybe if I am too picky I might just overlook someone who is good for me, and never realise it?? Grrr! Where's Dr. Phil when you need him!
