hi guys, i don't usually go onto forums and spill my guts out about my personal problems but i guess i'm kind of going nuts at work and i needed a place to just type my thoughts.
so i've seen this girl for the last two weeks. i really like her and we've been good friends for a while before that, and things were honestly great until this past weekend. for the last few days i felt a bit ignored by her, and i wasn't sure why. she seemed a bit evasive but she still seemed interested to go out on saturday night. we went to a concert, and afterwards she told me she was going to a friend's brother's birthday party. i felt somewhat annoyed that i was being treated like a time slot and i guess i let it show. we had a talk that she really didn't want to have, and in the end i came off poorly i.e. seemed insecure, possessive and i guess unjustified in what i was feeling. so the evening ended on a really sour note. i felt terrible afterwards, and i left her an sms apologizing for the way i behaved.
i guess it's only been like 36 hours since then, but it's been a long 36 hours and even though we briefly messaged each other earlier in the morning (we are in the same office, and she messaged me this morning online) it just felt really forced, and i guess nonchalant and awkward.
i've been through these before and i'm not proud of the way i behaved. i get too emotional sometimes and that has always been my downfall. she has been a good friend, and i really want her back, but at the same time i want her to continue to respect me like before, and i don't want to come off as weak and apologize more than i already have. i have been trying to keep myself upbeat and focus on other stuff at work, but i have been struggling wtih the urge to say anything more or do anything more the whole day, and frankly i feel mentally and emotionally drained from thinking/feeling like a hurricane is blowing through me.
i know it's my fault, and i know i need to re-earn her trust and respect again. what should i do?
i know it's almost pointless to say this, but honestly if you don't have any 'advice' other than something like 'go to a strip club' or 'go get wasted' that's not something i want to entertain. that's just a lame way out and i want to come out a better man from this and to also let her know i still really care about her and i want us to move on from this episode.
so i've seen this girl for the last two weeks. i really like her and we've been good friends for a while before that, and things were honestly great until this past weekend. for the last few days i felt a bit ignored by her, and i wasn't sure why. she seemed a bit evasive but she still seemed interested to go out on saturday night. we went to a concert, and afterwards she told me she was going to a friend's brother's birthday party. i felt somewhat annoyed that i was being treated like a time slot and i guess i let it show. we had a talk that she really didn't want to have, and in the end i came off poorly i.e. seemed insecure, possessive and i guess unjustified in what i was feeling. so the evening ended on a really sour note. i felt terrible afterwards, and i left her an sms apologizing for the way i behaved.
i guess it's only been like 36 hours since then, but it's been a long 36 hours and even though we briefly messaged each other earlier in the morning (we are in the same office, and she messaged me this morning online) it just felt really forced, and i guess nonchalant and awkward.
i've been through these before and i'm not proud of the way i behaved. i get too emotional sometimes and that has always been my downfall. she has been a good friend, and i really want her back, but at the same time i want her to continue to respect me like before, and i don't want to come off as weak and apologize more than i already have. i have been trying to keep myself upbeat and focus on other stuff at work, but i have been struggling wtih the urge to say anything more or do anything more the whole day, and frankly i feel mentally and emotionally drained from thinking/feeling like a hurricane is blowing through me.
i know it's my fault, and i know i need to re-earn her trust and respect again. what should i do?
i know it's almost pointless to say this, but honestly if you don't have any 'advice' other than something like 'go to a strip club' or 'go get wasted' that's not something i want to entertain. that's just a lame way out and i want to come out a better man from this and to also let her know i still really care about her and i want us to move on from this episode.
