hey LBF...i do feel bad about your situation, but...
1. This is a fish forum...not a place to air out your dirty laundry. Sorry to sound harsh, but im sure its been said many times in this tread.
2. You are getting advice from countless number of people. People who dont know you/you dont know well enough to be asking these question. This is something you need to discuss with your family or a professional psychologist.
3. I have read this tread and some people on here are giving you sound advice, and yet still falls on deaf ears. You say you will, its on the list, trying...why not say i have, its done. Intestions are good an all but if that all you have, then you are hopeless.
4. As for your money situation, 300 a week is not alot of money. SOrry to burst your bubble, but 1200 is not alot of money for a month. What happens if something happens and you cant afford/fix it?...S O L!
Seriously man...*****ing and whinning wont solve anything. Get off your @$$ and MAKE SOMETHING OF YOURSELF! If you think you are special, guess what, there are others like you. Some even worse off. Please stop spamming on here and get off your @%%, get a job, get a life!
ps...this is like a car wreck...ugly sight, but cant help look.