So last friday I lost my best friend
My 8 year old beagle rat terrier mix was hit by a car after running out the door while moving furniture outside. She was hit by a speeder who never slowed down, never looked back, and has officially earned my hatred, and I am not one to hate. Snoopy's pelvis was shattered and she had lost a lot of blood, the vets gave her a 10% chance of living through the night. So at approximately 6:00 pm she was put to sleep. That night I cried like I have never cried before, the only way I can describe the way I felt was when I broke my leg except it was all over my body, I shook, hit things, broke things, screamed, shouted, weeped, moaned, and prayed to a god I don`t believe in. The first thing I did when I got home was grab her leash and went for a walk, she loved walks, and when I got her as a pup I promised myself I would walk her every day, and I broke that promise.
She loved walks, they were her pure joy in life and yet I only took her for a walk once a week or so, although she did go to the park and cottage a few times a week for off leash walks, for some reason the leash was her addiction. The mere mention of the word walk or leash would throw her ina fit of shaking, whining, dog full of joy.
So when I finished her last walk I went home and cried my self to sleep.
sorry for the novel, and sob story, if you dont want to read more leave now
The next day I woke up around 2 am, I dug out some paint and a large flat rock that I had and made her grave stone
I then went on to dig her grave, shaking and moaning for this all to end, it took me 2 hours to dig her small grave and I put blood sweat and tears into it, especially tears. But by then I had dried up.
I quietly went to the nursery to get flowers, chose some flowers and ignored the workers who asked if I needed assistance, I oddly remember feeling horrible for ignoring them but I knew any words would turn on the sobbing again. So we went home, I carried to her grave, wrapped her in a blanket, kissed her good bye, held her for a while, shed more tears, and gently placed her in her grave. We put her leash, a bone, and a hot dog in with her.
we covered her with another blanket and started burying her, hand full by handful, tear by tear.
We planted the flowers, placed her headstone, and covered her grave with black mulch, rounded up some of her toys and set them on her grave, raked around to get all the loose dirt, and that was it
I will not ever see my baby again, I will not be greeted by her at the door, I wont have to worry about stepping in poop, I wonk have to buy any more dog treats, i wont have any dog under the covers at my feet every night who groans and growls if she has to move, I wont have any dog that I will remember as much as her as she was my true best friend, she was the only girl in my life that made my day so much better every day, all day.
I am sorry to write this, I am sorry shes gone, I am sorry if I made anyone sad, I just wrote this so I could start to move on
thanks for listening MFK
Im sure there will be more with time
RIP snoopy, I will always love you
My 8 year old beagle rat terrier mix was hit by a car after running out the door while moving furniture outside. She was hit by a speeder who never slowed down, never looked back, and has officially earned my hatred, and I am not one to hate. Snoopy's pelvis was shattered and she had lost a lot of blood, the vets gave her a 10% chance of living through the night. So at approximately 6:00 pm she was put to sleep. That night I cried like I have never cried before, the only way I can describe the way I felt was when I broke my leg except it was all over my body, I shook, hit things, broke things, screamed, shouted, weeped, moaned, and prayed to a god I don`t believe in. The first thing I did when I got home was grab her leash and went for a walk, she loved walks, and when I got her as a pup I promised myself I would walk her every day, and I broke that promise.
She loved walks, they were her pure joy in life and yet I only took her for a walk once a week or so, although she did go to the park and cottage a few times a week for off leash walks, for some reason the leash was her addiction. The mere mention of the word walk or leash would throw her ina fit of shaking, whining, dog full of joy.
So when I finished her last walk I went home and cried my self to sleep.
sorry for the novel, and sob story, if you dont want to read more leave now
The next day I woke up around 2 am, I dug out some paint and a large flat rock that I had and made her grave stone
I then went on to dig her grave, shaking and moaning for this all to end, it took me 2 hours to dig her small grave and I put blood sweat and tears into it, especially tears. But by then I had dried up.
I quietly went to the nursery to get flowers, chose some flowers and ignored the workers who asked if I needed assistance, I oddly remember feeling horrible for ignoring them but I knew any words would turn on the sobbing again. So we went home, I carried to her grave, wrapped her in a blanket, kissed her good bye, held her for a while, shed more tears, and gently placed her in her grave. We put her leash, a bone, and a hot dog in with her.
we covered her with another blanket and started burying her, hand full by handful, tear by tear.
We planted the flowers, placed her headstone, and covered her grave with black mulch, rounded up some of her toys and set them on her grave, raked around to get all the loose dirt, and that was it
I will not ever see my baby again, I will not be greeted by her at the door, I wont have to worry about stepping in poop, I wonk have to buy any more dog treats, i wont have any dog under the covers at my feet every night who groans and growls if she has to move, I wont have any dog that I will remember as much as her as she was my true best friend, she was the only girl in my life that made my day so much better every day, all day.
I am sorry to write this, I am sorry shes gone, I am sorry if I made anyone sad, I just wrote this so I could start to move on
thanks for listening MFK
Im sure there will be more with time
RIP snoopy, I will always love you
..im all sniffly
