Here are a few of what ive done when i was 20 and under.
Dear Lord
Chantel Poulin
I'm not good enough for you or me.
Why did it just take so long for me to see?
Here i'am thinking that all i've been doing is trying;
But now i relize my heart and mind has been dying.
I need help, I need guidence;
But all i'm recieving is silence.
Lord i need you now, I need you most;
Without you, all i'am is a ghost.
What path am i suppose to take?
I'm just so tired of being fake.
I need and want to know who i am,
I know now it's time to make my plan.
I want to feel alive,
I need to feel whole,
I have to complete this before it's my time
and your angels come for my soul.
FLYING
Chantel Poulin He squeezes her hand tighter and tries not to look down
It seems like million miles between them and the ground
A space that keeps on filling with things that go unsaid
Theyve grown so far away from the lives that they once led
He says werent we once flying or were we just getting high
Off of all the things that we said wed never let die
Now theres nowhere to go and nothing left to say
I cant see tomorrow through the pain of yesterday
Were here on this mountain and theres no going back
No way to get down now that weve gotten off track
This cliff that were standing on is crumbling like my dreams
Into the abyss where all that escapes are echoes of screams
Perhaps as an act of defiance or just one where hope is bereft
They jump off the edge, trusting in faith with all theyve got left
Suddenly they realize for once in their life theyre finally free
All it took was taking a chance and now its all too clear to see
You cant focus on tomorrow or youll miss whats happening today
And that taking a chance is better than letting one just slip away
Because even though you cant get hurt if you never try,
If you never love and you never jump then youll never fly
Sorry, I'm Not You
Chantel Poulin I'm sorry I' m not like you.
But trying to survive is a hard thing to do.
It would be easier with out all the preasure from peers
the kind that used to send me to bed with tears.
I'm sorry that I realived what I could become.
I don't care much about my image, well a little but, only some.
I'm not like you, I don't follow the "in" crowd.
I am me, I am different and I am proud.
If something bugs me, I'll speak my mind.
In my world, a break is a hard thing to find.
But I pull through some way or another.
So what if when I speak I start to stutter?
I'm not that skinny and I don't care.
If you don't like it, don't stop and stare.
I know I'm not that pretty but what can I do?
You just have to deal with whats been givin to you.
So just shut the **** up, it's my turn to talk.
Sit down, I'm not going to let you walk.
Your prescious fashion trends are going to fade.
The cool new things have probly already been made.
Am I just a dress up doll?
to know what not to buy when you go to the mall...
I don't fit in and I Don't care.
Mock me to my face, go on take a dare.
But you can't do it with out your groupy friends
you know, the ones that got you hooked on trends.
But do you remember back when you were getting laid?
When I was the only friend you had ever made?
But I'm sorry, I'm not you.
I'm happy and I know what I want to do.
I'm going to stay the same.
Someone will love me the way I am and with that I have no pain.
unexplainable feelings
Chantel Poulin
Why am i scared?
It doesn't make sense.
Why do i worry?
It only makes me tense.
Im scared to speak.
I only hurt the ones i care about.
I worry im not good enough,
I always regret, and live in doubt.
Why am i nervous?
It doesn't get me no where.
Why do i anticipate?
It only makes me more aware.
Im to nervous to move.
I always go the wrong way.
My anticipation leads me no where
I just want to be normal for a day.
Why do i care?
It only makes me hurt more inside.
Why do i love?
It only makes me want to confide.
I care for many reasons.
I want other people to care to.
My love i cant describe.
It leaves me confused and not knowing what to do.
more unexplainable feelings
Chantel Poulin
Close your eyes, yes close your eyes
Stand in time, embrace your
surroundings
Take a look around inside yourself
Set your mind free to explore your inner
self
Take your time to feel your way around
Travel paths that aren't well travelled
look for what is missing
Let loose all your desires
let nothing get in your way
there are not limits
Only yourself can stop you
Go as far as you want
you are incontrol
your own destiny is in the palms of your hands
Dreams come true, if you let them
Time is ticking away, against you
There is an end at some point
Open your eyes
You know what you must do
look ahead, let your heart point you in the right
direction
Not others around you
People do get hurt
But they will move on
And shall you
Don't get caught up on the past
Live in the moment
As i'm about to emerge into your life
