Sorry to hear, but I agree the previous comments on how if you honestly can't take loosing fish then fish keeping isn't for you. Also I do have to add that I find it funny that you had to rant about quiting. Obviously if you were really going to quit you wouldn't have had anything to do with a fish board at all... Anyways as said enjoy your break and next time try some fish that you know you can keep and then slowly go into new fish... A crash course on Discus isn't really the way to go. Just be happy you didn't jump into salt tanks.