the guy im speakin of grew up sort of out casty ,antisocial but liked alot of peircings and crazy hair to still stand out,high intelect however,that was high school,30 years old now and always stayed in school,as me,loves fine cigars and wines,playin darts with closest friends and fam,barbi doll sister and beautifull little niece,well off retired parents ,dad was engieneer forget what mom did,about 4 years ago he was out of country teachin english in brazil,fell in love with a beauty ,he still very antisocial until a few drinks was a bad match up for her,she was very flanty lovin to dance and party and so on,i think he was draggin her down,he moved back and she broke up with him,his dpression got so bad,has seen los of docs and lots of meds,even started doing shock therapy witch made him have short term mem loss,at one time they got his meds wrong and caused sezures,dam how do you spell that,anyway,hes been on so many meds that it makes him either tire,weak or mostly shakey.he had been going to school and workin with sergical techs,actualy held a heart in his hands once ,helped save a life,anger problems set in huge,in publick places in front of ppl he normaly would never be like that in front of.New brazilian girlfriend couldnt take it,he broke up with her anyways because he couldnt stop thinkin of the last.seems more over her know butt no doc or constant therapy helps,anger finaly went away with change of meds,he is a very sharp looking guy,very skinny however and too upsidedown for a girlfreind yet thats all he wants,i am very experienced for a 32 year old and he locks on to me like you wouldnt believe.for 2 years about 5 of us,gezerz included play darts ,listen to good music,smoke the best cigars and talk smack to some of the best conversation posible.he became adictid to this and will call me every day,if you dont go over he finds ways to get you to by threatining himself,i was fighting depression for real reasons and it got too much for me at times,i had along talk with him and he understood,then it started all over again,he started cutting his wrists all up,and has gone to the hospital many times,some long tearm.he is fine when he gets out most of the time and not others,his parents dont understand and do love him and fork alot of bucks to his bills,he lives with them,actualy just moved 2 hours away with a friend but its not changing anything,ive gotten up at 2 in the morn to go keep him from cutting,he is next door to my parents,they found him on the grass bleeding to death and docs said that was almost it,after he almost dies he feels better for a bit,each time he does it , its when i wont come around,or hill have a great time and try to keep me and my girl over as long as he can and then when we leave he does it,im not just talkin little cutts.i spent 2 years 4-5 nights a week with him or talkin with him and freinds,nothins changing,his parents always belittle him and then on the other hand his dad isists to be around when he cuts becaus he tells him now when hes going to do it,i know he is loved,he feels worthless to the world and his fam,to messed up to get a job and school,this guy reads med books like its the news paper.i talk God with him and he rols withit i think just so ill stick around,you would never know any of this if you met him,very charming,any help would be great,i know just typing this dosnt even give you much to feed off but at least its a start,thank you for reading,i would not post this if i thought he would just stick to a few cuts here and there.
