I understand completely. I just lost my cat Angel last week, and putting him down hit me very hard. I've done it before several times with other animals, but it hurt more this time than it ever has before. My dogs-2 and remaining cat are children to me. I've given them the love that I would have for a child. The hurt gets better with time, I'm not so bad now about looking for him when I feed the remaining cat Princess- now the Queen of the house. I was looking for him this morning when I got up, all 3 of the others gathered around me looking for attention. All I could think of was one is missing. I still see his eyes, open looking at me when we wrapped him in a blanket and sheet. I say now no more cats, but one will find me when the time is right. You did the right thing, ending the pain. Just know both our pets are in a better place, no pain. I want to believe in the Rainbow Bridge, where they are made whole and healthy and wait for us. Hope things get better soon, I'm still facing my own guilt for putting my Angel to sleep. I know it was the right thing to do, but it hurts like hell.
My friend just had to put her cat down that was 21 years old and its just horrible. I don't even want to think about when I have to do the same to my dog. He's almost 6yo and is a wolfdog but he's already developing arthritis which is odd cuz he's so young. Even though it sucks to hold them when they are being put down, I feel is better because, like humans, they probably would like to be around their loved ones as they pass as well
