So Hard to say goodbye and let go

[Red Devil]

very moving and inspiring story.Best wishes.View attachment 165326

this is how she looked,,that was so sweet of you...she was the only horse who noticed everything you did..all the rest would continue grazing in the pasture..but if we were leaving in the truck she would stand high and stretch her head up and watch our truck leave until we were out of sight..and know when we were coming home ... she always watched for us.

 

[DeLgAdO]

I know very strange ...we made up this bronze plack for the mother star.. the date is feb 19th ..Grandma, MOM and Baby all gone now.

baby no have children?

 

[DeLgAdO]

Thank you Dan... we have to hang in there .. we have alot of them depending on us... from the fish on up! yesterday i said some things like ..i have to change my life... and let all of them go ..i just cannot keep going through this ...but i know in my heart i could never let them go and i will go through it again someday... and i won't be sorry..but it does not get any easier ...

you cant change your life if theyve changed yours in the first place, and letting go would mean releasing the hold they have on you, but you cant let go because of the hold you have on them and that my dear is a bond that cannot be broken

 

[duke33]

I'm so sorry.

 

[Red Devil]

you cant change your life if theyve changed yours in the first place, and letting go would mean releasing the hold they have on you, but you cant let go because of the hold you have on them and that my dear is a bond that cannot be broken

you are so right... i have the thought in my mind sometimes of letting them go,,moving away from the farm .. letting go of all the pain and easing my responcibilities, wondering what it would be like to be free of pain and dedication that slaps you like a whip when you have to end their life, i will never let go because no matter where i go or what i do i would bring them with me in my heart and soul, this is my life and they are part of it.. so you are so right.. like dragonfish said we will meet at the bridge ..but for now i will continue on..thanks Delgrado ..

 

[Red Devil]

I'm so sorry.

Thank you Duke... it is getting harder today because shock is wearing off and reality is so vivid that she is gone.. as we all have loved and lost it will get easier in time, but your words of kindness keep me going.

 

[Red Devil]

baby no have children?

We had the Grandmother , then grandma gave me Star my first baby belgian and then i had my Star bred , then lost star when legacy was a year old... when you lose the mother you are thankful she left her one baby... i could not breed anyone of them anymore after that .. the pain was too great to bear and we stopped breeding and raising and showing but decided to keep the ones we had and be thankful..

 

[DeLgAdO]

you are so right... i have the thought in my mind sometimes of letting them go,,moving away from the farm .. letting go of all the pain and easing my responcibilities, wondering what it would be like to be free of pain and dedication that slaps you like a whip when you have to end their life, i will never let go because no matter where i go or what i do i would bring them with me in my heart and soul, this is my life and they are part of it.. so you are so right.. like dragonfish said we will meet at the bridge ..but for now i will continue on..thanks Delgrado ..

you must also realize that the joy they bring into your life INFINETLY outweighs the grief. Even after they are gone, MORE will come seeking the care and love that the world has denied them.

 

[jiapei]

so soorry to hear that, i know i can do nothing to help, but hope you wont be too sad about it, and wish your other horses heathy.

 

[Red Devil]

you must also realize that the joy they bring into your life INFINETLY outweighs the grief. Even after they are gone, MORE will come seeking the care and love that the world has denied them.

I realize what your saying.. and i wish i could take in all that need..