I can sorta kinda maybe see where you are coming from; as much as I love animals in general, spiders were a bit of a sore spot for me when I was very young. I'm sure that one of my psychopathic relatives did their best to instill that in me.
So, when I was in my early teens, I purchased a hatchling Redknee Tarantula (Brachypelma smithi) to overcome that silly and baseless fear. Everybody knows this spider, even if not by name; when a movie director requires a big-ass hairy scary tarantula...this is the one they always choose. When purchased, the little guy was not much bigger than a Zebra Jumping Spider, and those were always easy for me to warm up to and handle. And handle it I did; the Redknee is known among arachnophiles as being extremely docile and friendly.
Believe me, this sort of self-help therapy works wonders. Today, I can still be startled by a big spider catching me by surprise, but by and large I have almost completely rid myself of any fear of spiders.
C
Cal Amari
, you need to get outside and find a small jumping spider. Not sure where you live, but they are pretty much world-wide in distribution. You likely have a small species living in your yard right now. Jumpers are unbelievably alert and aware of their surroundings, and they are easy to handle as they don't move like lightning. I'm serious; give it a try, a little bit at a time, and stick with it. You'll likely wind up with a Bird-eating Tarantula as a pet next year.
Now...snakes? You don't like snakes? That's just weird...
How can anybody not love snakes?!?!?!?