I hope you feel better soon, and vent all you want, I look it as one way why
we're here. i think it's a good idea to get rid of some of your stock, may help
your perspective.
GOOD LUCK.
Last time I felt like this I just got rid of some of the "problematic" tanks; ended up not having to even get rid any fish. Once I cut out a lot of the bad I got to concentrate more on my success and boosted my morale a lot more!