Sorry to hear. My dog who is 13 fell down a flight of stairs on wednesday and was in real bad shape. I pretty much thought I was going to lose her. I spent all day thursday and friday thinking about her leaving me, and it made me sad. I never really thought about it before, nor did I want to. But it happens, It happens to everyone sooner or later, and i never wanted realize that. Fortunately I think shes going to be OK. I know how you feel though and am sorry for your loss. Sounds like she had a great life.