well guess what... you know the cold and rain we had... well evidently the electric outside went off on my caiman enclosure... I went out there to find ramone limp.... scared me to death...he barely opened his eyes.. this camain was REAL special to me... not a lot of people realize that... but I really love animals and have all my life... so I get more attached to say a dog to a alligator then most people do... I have lost one caiman to one of my brothers friends... and this made my heart sink... well I rushed him to a vet... evidently he somehow broke his back right leg... and was real cold... since these guys are from south america they can't be below 70degrees.. he was like 50-60... now he is in a small rubbermaid tub in my room with a heat blanket under it... he is showing progress and I hope he feels better... but this sure kicked of my spring break well.................(that was earlier this morning )
I went in there to check on ramone and found him basically limp.... I held him and he started to twitch a little... but he died in my hands... I am so freaking sad... this is the saddest day of my life.... to me he was like a puppy... and I feel like I failed him... this is the hardest I have cried in a long time and the first time I have cried in about a year honestly... I can't believe this happened.... I just want to die right now.... I can't believe it.......
