I just got into yet another argument with my girl, and just broke up with her. I called it off. I just can't stand the fact that no matter what, we can't seem to communicate. Or maybe I just stopped loving her. I just don't know. This girl used to be the world to me. Every bit of her. I know she loves me more then life itself, and that is what has driven me apart inside. I don't know if I love her as much as she loves me. And it scares the hell out of me. I can't stand the thought of us marrying, and finding out I married the wrong girl. There is no other girl in my life right now. Its not like that. However, I do walk on campus, and check out other girls. But bottom line is I don't know if she is the one. I am a facts man. I need to know. I need to know one concrete way to know if she is the one. I need to look at a list, and see that she is or isn't, that I love her or I don't love her. But no such list exists. Which makes it so hard for me. How do I know? I could not live with myself if I marry her, and she isn't the one for me, if she isn't "the love of my life". I couldn't bear to hurt her like that. Its 3 in the morning, and we just spent the last 1.5 hours arguing. Over nothing and everything. Do I just need a break from her? We have been going out for 3.5 years now. Before her, my longest relationship was, I dunno, 4 months? I have A.D.D. out my ass, and I would always chase new girls. I don't know what to do. I feel like ending it all. I feel so confused, and I hate being confused. I absolutely loath it. WTF do I do now?


