The sources I've used are reputable, and most of them don't sell stuff, they are written for the sake of knowledge, not for sales, and those I listen to the most. Yeah, being adorable and reasonably priced are bad excuses.
I haven't refused to listen to you, I'm seriously considering getting rid of it. The "not discouraging" ship has sailed, though...
I think this is practically hopeless at this point. I want way more than I 1. can afford and 2. I have the space for. I just wish I didn't have rare/cool taste, as that is what is driving me with this hobby and many other hobbies. I want the rarest/coolest fish I can get, but then again, 90% of those fish are 10 times the size of my tank.
Like I said before, I will sleep on it, think about it further, and decide tomorrow. I'm going to the fish store tomorrow again anyway.