I feel like you and I may have had somewhat similar school situations, This is something many people today would never believe about me, I always felt like I was an unhappy child, lets just say my parents did not have an ideal marriage and went through a VERY ugly divorce that I still have to hear whining about til this day, During school (8th grade and on)I was almost always able to get girls(like we are all capable of doing) but I was so afraid and depressed, I felt like the whole world could see right through me and knew all of my problems like they were written on my forehead, I was afraid of people liking me!!
I felt like it was all B.S. I was very ashamed of this as well. Before starting High school I was shipped off to live with my dad , who worked very hard and had very little time to teach me things I needed to know by that time(like being able to interact with people) needless to say I was VERy quiet in school and chose to be alone when possible. I got into big trouble my freshman year and luckily was able to graduate from a home schooling program missing out on a "typical" high school experience. I guess my point is who gives a damn about all that stuff in the past ? High school isn't like the movies for everybody, and I think that is what I used to want ? I made all of my really good friends AFTER high school( actually around your age 19), and trust me you have LOTS of time to make new friends, "court" lovely young ladies
and party til your head pops, you are very,very young still and you can/will experience all of the things you maybe "worried" about having missed out/being behind on. Just don't be afraid to shake things up and try something new, you may have to leave your comfort zone and it may not be easy but just go for it, if you never change things around, things will always be the same. If you feel like you are really frustrated , don't be ashamed to go talk to someone that can help . I think it is cool that you want to get your aro the best tank you can for it, it seems like you have taken great care of it to reach its current size! That sucks that you may have to give it away but that would actually be pretty noble of you if you can only find it the right home ? Good luck with everything tank/aro/ect,
Maybe Mom will capitulate...
