I am sorry for your loss. I know things like this can really depress the ***** out of you in the hobby. Just take a break and relax, I suggest. You gave him a good life, and that is what is important.
im so sorry for your loss-he was so handsome! its been a bad week for fish-ive lost all but 3 of my africans to bloat-i dont ever want to keep africans again lol..
i think im just about as disgusted as you are this week..