What do I do now?

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I woke up to the worst news I have ever heard in my life. One of my best friends committed suicde this morning. I've never felt this horrible in my life, I wish he had called me or something before he pulled the trigger, I've been balling my eyes out all day and just asking why? WHY?!?!?!?!?! I cant even hardly finish this rest of this post, because last night we got into a arguement over him doing drugs. I've just been sitting here all day drowing my sorrow into a damn beer bottle all day, I don't even drink, but this has to be the worst thing that has happened to me. Sorry guys for the sap story, I just need some answers or suggestions as to how to deal with this. I feel like it is my fault, I mean I didn't even get to say bye or make things right with him. I feel like a Mack Truck hit me backed up over me and hit me again. I just needed somewhere to vent, I hope someone on here has had the same happen to them. I just feel hopelss and sick to my stomache. :cry::cry::cry::(:(:(:swear::swear::1zhelp::help2::WTF::rip:rip:rip:rip:rip
 
everyone has thier own battles.
there may have been a lot going on in his life that no one knew about.

just know that he is no longer desperate, no longer feeling anguish.

he is at peace.
 
I have lost some very dear friends of mine. never by suicide but they are gone regardless. I guess the only thing I can say is I'm sorry and these kinds of things happen all over the world.surround yourself with good people. pay your respects and regardless of what happened it sounds like you were a good friend. sorry for your loss
 
You did not pull the trigger. Do not think for one second you did.
 
I hope he is at peace but certain beleifs that I beleive make me lean towards he is in a worse place now. Its just so hard to even fathom this, I just wish he would call and say haha I got you good, but thats not going to happen I know what is done is done.
 
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