Buy book of history also for yourself. Hang huge, bronze bell above coffin. Light candles of scented oils pine, gardenia, lemon and rose, place all around coffin. Lie in coffin and hold book of history tightly against chest with crossed arms. Not get out of coffin (except for reading MFK). Now, when in coffin with book holding in crossed arms pressing tightly against chest, begin to remember! Remember lost friend, remember past, remember present... Strike bell with all force when no longer can hold back tears! Open book, let tears soak into pages of opened book, page after page after page. Always remember, so many futures could have been, remember more, more and more remember, all future joys and blessings that could have been, should have been, until last murmurs of bell toll dies, until last linger of candle fragrance disappears...then snap shut this book of history, this love of history, this history of love, this love is history...until next chapter, the next surging wave, or the next dribble of tears.
And yes i'm stronger but thats not worth to beat him up for 40 €. Its just **** when you had a friendship for years and it suddenly breaks apart. You get those crazy ideas then to demand gifts back out of frustration. Well now that i have slept one night over it i see how dumb that is. :/
