im in this mood again 
i hate being negative, but there any point in being positive??
there seems no point to live life, i dont even know how and never did.
Everything seems pointless and without reason
how do you even motivate yourself??? that "happiness comes from within" means nothing to me
happiness is alway short lived for me.
i use to wish i was dead just to end all the suffering and confusion, but i feel like im just waiting to die.
oh and i hate optomistics, they look down on and put down the pessimistic further instead of helping, they show darkness instead of the light.
friends would be nice, if i had any, it sucks being unique, you guys are the closes thing to friend that i have.
help me
i hate being negative, but there any point in being positive??
there seems no point to live life, i dont even know how and never did.
Everything seems pointless and without reason
how do you even motivate yourself??? that "happiness comes from within" means nothing to me
happiness is alway short lived for me.
i use to wish i was dead just to end all the suffering and confusion, but i feel like im just waiting to die.
oh and i hate optomistics, they look down on and put down the pessimistic further instead of helping, they show darkness instead of the light.
friends would be nice, if i had any, it sucks being unique, you guys are the closes thing to friend that i have.
help me

and i try to resist as hard as i can, but it wins.