today, me and my family had to make one of the hardest decisions ever, was deciding to put my eldest dog to sleep. For the last three weeks, his lymphoma has really blown up taking a toll on his body. this morning he just seemed so off, didnt greet me when i woke up or take his treats. the look he gave me immediately told me that it was his time to go. by mid morning his breathing and energy just went downhill, so we painfully took him to the vet to be put to sleep. being my first dog, i never knew how hard it would be to see him go. its a feeling as if their is void in my life and my families life. coming home and not seeing him on the couch is weird. i feel like ive lost my childhood friend, my brother... he was a part of the family. even the other two dogs are constantly looking for him, even his own son. truthfully, as much as me and my family knew that his health was heading south, there is no preparation for the actual day like today. all i can say is RIP Kai, i know youre in a better place now and you dont have to suffer anymore... i will miss you. sorry for the depressing post, but i just needed to get things out.
