you will go through several stages of mourning..... Denial.... ANGER...(BAD One)...Bargining.... Depression..... Acceptance.....
I'm not going to lie.... its very difficult.... the pain almost made me self destruct many times..... drugs, fighting, alcohol..... was my way of self medication.... ended up in Jail and alone by 18.... then i remembered that i was taught better than that...... my parents didnt want me to end up like this..... I got my SH*T together...... started working hard.... tried to learn and live as much as i can...... i became very independant ..... and strong willed..... theres nothing i cannot achieve.... (except grammer) Today i feel lucky to have gone throught what i went through young.... All my friend come to me for advice..... LIFE SHAPES you.... but you can point it in the direction you want it to go.....