I have personal issues as well. I've battled addiction for a long time(more years that I'd like to count or even admit). I've lived the "Rock and Roll" lifestyle for a very long time. I love playing music in the bars and clubs. I also love the parties and all of the party favors involved with that lifestyle. There in lies my problem.
Being addicted not only makes you loose focus on what's important in your life, but also makes you over look the simple childhood things that just make you feel good.
I've kept fish off and on for several years. It wasn't until 3 years ago that I got back into the hobby full force. I had enough of my life as I knew it and needed something else. Something I enjoy as much as those party favors. Something to keep my mind busy, my hands busy.
With my wife's help, I've been clean and sober for over 2 years. We have transformed our house into what I call my serenity station. We have a 180g in the living room, a 180g in the dining room, a 150g and a 90g in our bedroom, and a 75g and a 40g in my computer room. May be I just traded one addiction for another but I feel so much better. My stress levels have gone down. I found a little serenity in my life.
Sorry for the long post. I've been needing to get that off of my chest for a long time. I agree with you--it is hard to find people to relate to.
Excellent thread--as always,
Chris