I have been working on a plan of action and have resorted to the admission that I need to seek outside employment for several reasons. I believe that I have a job offer coming in the next day or so and it is giving me a lot of mixed emotions. I began looking for part-time, or temporary work, to bridge a gap here until I could make it to the next step, however the opportunity that has arisen seems to be a possible long-term career choice that I need to accept.
This has kept me up many nights. I don't really have the energy to run a side-line business in addition to working 45hrs per week, but I don't want to give up on my business either. This is difficult, but I have realized a few things that are important to consider.
First, no job can keep me against my will. I used to think that my job was everything and without it I would be nothing. The last few years have taught me a lot, and I know that if I am not happy there, I can quit once I get some money in the bank and get a few things paid for.
Second, if I enjoy the work environment, there is no reason why I can't do both things. I don't have to do it all myself. If I get a building up, there isn't really anything in there that I couldn't pay a college kid an hourly part-time wage to keep up on.
I'm not closing any doors or ending any chapters. The last year has been very difficult for me in many ways and I'm happy to report that the light is still bright at the end of the tunnel regardless of the haze that has been attempting to block it.
Mike